Sunday, August 16, 2009

some days seem to feel so unapealing for the next...

Some days you feel great, and would love to, lets say go for a jog, walk, hop, or maybe even a skip "if your just that kind of person."

&& other days you feel trapped in a world of despair.

Well lately I feel like neither of those things. I actually feel like an aspiring actress ready for my big break, maybe I just need a break from the drama && hardcore action of volleyball.
Being as I'm now a Lady Cougar, && not where I should be in life doesn't seem to help.
These 2 extra years of High School in a small town isn't as great as I can make it sound, as for me I find myself in a writers block wondering if i should quit now, or stride for something greater than what my family expects of me? Hmmm, now do you see where I fit into this black sheep mentality.
My family is made up of great's && I feel destined to sit in the stands as their careers unfold into a full blown rage when their goals come flying && they knock it out of the park while I stand hoping that those goals I set aren't higher than I can really bat.
I guess what im trying to say is... With a Father honorably discharged from the U.S Military, a Mother who is a wonderful Web Designer with great eye for talent, a Step-Mom who has idea's unimaginable to Einstein, a Step-Dad who's got everything to live for , && brothers who know nothing more than to do as expected in school. I feel designated to follow in their footsteps.
Yet I cant focus in school, never makes good grades, && dont even have my permit.

What does life have in store for me this school year?
Hopefully something of great success, because another year of failure isn't great for a girl with self esteem like mine.

Well I am going to keep my head held high like my nose is bleeding from my set goals beating me to the turn around in the outfield.

Think with your heart not always your brain.
Learn from me, and I will learn from you.



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  2. Oh miss Ashlee, you have so many talents that are unfolding and you dont even realize... let me help you see them... you have one of the most dynamic, energetic, magnetic personalities I have met!

    You ALWAYS share and will always give the other person the bigger half!

    You are one of the most creative people, not children, not adults.... but people I know, you can create something COOL out of a paper bag.

    Your friends admire your humor and laughter, the bright side of everything that you see.

    Your photography is AMAZING.... AND lol HAHA LOL you dont have a permit but that sure doesn't stop you from trying to drive, now does it??? LOL

    You admire people and I believe you take some of everyone you meet and share it with the rest of the world and DONT be so hard on yourself, school isnt everything... just do your best and the rest will follow.... REMEMBER you create your own reality.

    Ashlee, I love you dearly... and I am greatful that I have you in my life!!


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